EJR

Time is quickly passing, though I’ve never been one to want it to slow down. I don’t mean for this to come out as terrible as it may sound, but I don’t care much for life. I don’t worry about getting older, or running out of time. Society has put the pressure of needing to have an exuberant amount of meaning to life. When in actuality, there isn’t much. Of course, it’s truly a strange concept. To live. I think everyone should have aspirations, and put in a good amount of effort to have a fulfilling life. Honestly, to live is such an immense gift that almost every human being takes for granted. Myself included. To live is the most unpredictable, most unstable “thing” in the entire world. It’s just an event, a fleeting moment. Something everyone should hope for is that they can leave something, have an impact on someone, after they are no longer around to witness it themselves. Be the change. Ghandi said it, embrace it. Just don’t be terribly hard on yourself. Breathe a lot. Don’t be afraid of running out of time, because at least you’ve had some. So, this is where I begin to self medicate with actions and changes to my life. Considering I no longer rely on medication, and I no longer want to take for granted my life that my parents (who have loved me immensely, despite everything I’ve put them through) worked so hard to give me. I will compile of list of things I hope to accomplish, or things I want to do to make myself feel better. - Continue to compliment myself, and others. - Inhale deeply, exhale. Three times each, five times a day. - Write, so much more. - Talk to my mother every day. Even if it’s just a text message. - Exercise and cut out sugar. I’m sure there will be more, but for now , these are the things I would like to cut out immediately.